Today I want to let you in on a personal topic.
It has greatly affected me for the longest time in my life.
It took a lot of strength for me to be here today.
Growing up, I believed I’m the ugliest in my circle of friends
It came from a perspective I had that, people were more likely to be kind or talk to my friends rather than me.
Obviously, all those lies that I told myself grew with me, I had low self-esteem and didn’t believe in myself at all.
I resorted to having a loud character that made me center of attention and acquaint with a lot of people because of my forwardness but with others they just hated me for it.
All my frustrations were hidden by the loud and active character but I would still cry myself to sleep.
Teenage years crept in and those were just the hardest because I wasn’t confident in myself.
Relationships were the worst because firstly; I rushed into it, just to be ‘LOVED’ but I always knew that ‘My Crush’ was always bound to choose my friend than me.
The easiest thing to do was to just being comfortable with being second best, I saw no good in myself and just buried myself in schoolwork because that was the only thing that boosted my confidence a bit.
Looking back, I am grateful that it all happened that way because as time went by, I learnt a lot about myself.
I made mistakes that made me a better person.
I learnt to love myself for me and not for people. I learnt to fully depend on God
Peoples opinions did break me but I am glad they didn’t make me so I don’t have to live by them.
I am glad it was God who molded a better character in me because it is much more beneficial in my life.
“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as though you were working for the Lord and not for people.” – Colossians 3:23
My Lovers, You are Special. Thank you for staying till thee end.
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